Living in a city your entire life has it's disadvantages. For one it takes so much more to catch your interest than it does for, say, a person in a small town. You see so much more in a city that when the evening news rolls around it's no big deal. Robbery went wrong, three people dead. Car accident on freeway, three people dead. Different story, same conclusion. In a small town I'd imagine it would have a different reaction than it does here. The city turns you cold. The death's on the television they're just numbers after a while and pretty soon you're not sure if you're watching the news or the latest episode of a crime drama.
I'm not saying this because somebody died. People die everyday and the rest of us manage to go on with our routine. After a while you stop seeing death as a tragedy and eventually it becomes a job. "Oh, your name's Marco; that's my son's name." "What's he do?" "He's dead." Does it matter what you did in life once your dead? Somebody says "I have three kids. My oldest son is a mechanic, my daughter is a teacher and my other son is dead." There's no accomplishments in death, you can't take a diploma to the grave and by the time your funeral rolls around people are too worried about what they're going to say to your family to really think about you.
We all live and die, even if it's only the second part that really matters. Nobody cares about the shit in between once it's all said and done. You spend a few days mourning but don't give that person a moment's thought when it's your turn to kick the bucket. Nobody gives a fuck about you.
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